I did it

I cancelled my appointment with the Fertility Clinic. ***gulp***

I'd been putting it off for so long because I didn't want to jinx myself. I didn't want to delay any more though, since I wanted someone else to be able to make use of that appointment time.

Fingers crossed I should never need that appointment...

15 weeks

Seriously. I'm 15 weeks. That's nutty!

So, I think I'm starting to feel movement. Not sure yet. I was by 14 1/2 weeks with Jesse, so I'm a tad worried, but not much. I'm sure I'll feel it soon.

In other news, I'm down to 207.5 lbs. Which, yeah, is a lot. It's actually right about what I weighed when I had Jesse. But it's down from 218 pre-pregnancy. I'll be quite happy if I don't go over that number.

I guess that's it for now. Nothing too exciting.

I think I'll work on a belly pic in the next week or so. And work on finding some decent mat jeans. I'm getting desperate here!

14 weeks!

So I guess, by everyone's standards, I am now in the 2nd trimester! Woohoo!!! I'm feeling pretty good, except for the exhaustion. But I guess that's par for the course when you have a toddler to chase after as well.

Not much news this week except that baby has gone through a growth spurt! I'm still just looking like I polished off an all-you-can-eat buffet, but I can tell my uterus has really grown! It's about up to my belly button now! Wild, huh? It's all still very weird, because I really don't feel very pregnant. I guess once I start feeling movement that'll click in.

Oh, wait! There is news! The midwife has moved home and is willing to take me on as a client! I'm so, so, so ecstatic to be planning a homebirth! It's just amazing. I thought it wasn't even going to be an option, but now it most definitely is! I had been dreading having another hospital birth, and now I'm really looking forward to welcoming this baby into the world in our own home. So exciting!

13 weeks!

Holy hell! Where'd the first trimester go?! I'm feeling pretty good. We can find the baby's heartbeat easily, though we haven't really felt the need to do so very often. My uterus is clearly growing, and I'm quickly growing out of my clothes!

OK, so the big news....I had my u/s on Monday, August 23rd!!! The student u/s tech who did the u/s was fabulous! She turned the screen so I could see the baby really well. Trouble was just moving all over the place! It was surreal! Anywho, a pic of Trouble:

Personally, I think it's a boy. There was a butt shot at one point and I think I saw a little dickey bird. I really don't care much either way though. I'd just like to be able to buy cute girly clothes for once!

I had an appointment then on Wednesday, August 25th. It was at Dr. Duggan's clinic, but she wasn't there. I saw her resident Dr. Boudreaux instead. She was wonderful, and I'll get to see her another 2 times. She looked up the report from the u/s and there was nothing out of the ordinary noted, so I guess the source of the bleed will remain a mystery for all time. What matters is that the baby is OK now though, right? 

Anywho, must sign off....big brother will be waking up from his nap soon!

11w0d

11 weeks?! Seriously? How the hell did that happen?! Craziness.

OK, so updates...
...ultrasound is booked for August 23rd. I hope to God they'll give me pics this time!
...I've been referred to Dr. Duggan again. I'll probably see her around 14 weeks.
...I can now feel the top of my uterus and the heartbeat is much easier to find.


...Jesse likes to kiss and hug "the baby"
...The baby in my ticker looks like an actual freaking baby! Holy crap!

10w3d

We've been finding the h/b again! Yay! It's just higher than I thought it would be. :)

I'm starting to get kind of comfortable with the idea that I'm actually pregnant.

9w5d - Worry

I haven't found the heartbeat for 2 days in a row now. I'm not freaking, but still worried. Hopefully the little one is just being a bugger.